Was watching some Korean drama called Queen Seon Deok. It's damn interesting, and complex, 'cause I didn't watch from start haha! But dang. Like interesting.
Tv show ended. I'm bored ): Hadn't start any work these few days lol.. Hopefully I start tomorrow. Ah.. Kinda regret not going China, from some of the photos uploaded while there, they looked like they're having so much fun! Lol.
So bored now.. Sigh. Think I'll do analysis of people I've known. One per post I guess. Analysis and my own feelings and how the person's like etc. Haha. Good points of course! Okay. Time check 2am now.
So. First analysis. Let's call him B.
I've known B for around like, two years. Around there. Known him first through the game. Didn't know him very well at first.. Only know his name, where he live and how old he is. Lol! Can't remember how we started out talking too. But my first impression of him (virtually, at least) was that he's a guy who don't talk much. Even if he talks, it's short and sweet - to the point. Didn't ask much questions about the game mechanics when he started out.
We're kinda like the kind that talks only once in a while, usually only when we have game needs - like you know, sending people over to each other's clan. Game base, he overtook me by a mile in a few weeks. Haha. Ah yes. I remember we were waaaay formal. Lol!! Address each other by game names even though we know each others' names way from the start.
Talked slightly more when the family clans quarrel broke out, and along with a few others, they managed to convince me to join their clan. Lol! Okay blahblah. Started to talk more after that I think? Almost on a daily basis I guess. Got more close.. Talk alot. PMs, phone calls etc. Until things changed more drastically this year. Lol. This girl - let's call her E. The entering of E, in my opinion, ruined everything... :/ B is like soooo mesmerized by E. What the fuck. Haha. Okay fine, maybe a lil' jealous. But more pissed though. The fact that I somehow "lost" a close friend. Everything changed, it's just E this E that. Fuck. :/
So after that we kinda drifted a little, even up till now. That's why I'm having a headache everyday wondering how to change things. Haha. Soooooooo that's the history of how I got to know him and how things progressed. After reading that, most might be thinking - bloody hell, it's just a normal friend. Haha, not exactly.
He earned my trust easily, I have no damn idea how and why :/ Lol. Must be the way he talk and present himself I guess. Charismatic, influential, and all. I like to hear him reason things out, it made my mind more clear as well usually. He's sarcastic, just like me. Lol. Think the way we handle people is usually almost the same - sarcasm. But damn, I don't like it when he use his sarcasm on me. Haha.
He got an unique way of showing care to people. He won't say or show it, I swear. It's totally ambiguous. You have to just go and feel it. It's sooo interesting. Sometimes when you least expect the care to come, it will, just in a different form. I feel it, I just don't say it. Haha.
B's fucking good at seeing through people as well. Almost like a psychologist. Scary, but interesting. I can read most people as well, but his "level" is way higher than mine. Lol. Most people find it hard to know what I'm thinking in RL. He can guess what I'm thinking easily, and ffs, it's virtually. Wtshit. Hahaha. He's the only one that can do that.. But it's really a relieve at times. Don't have to face all the "Why?"s questions like from most people. He just know how I feel even before I say. Which is why I enjoy calls with him, even up at unearthly hours most of the time, talk nonsense until 4-5 in the morning. Lolol.
We can relate well. 'Cause we're like seriously damn alike. Rebellious, naughty, no interest in studying, can see through people generally, like to gl and sarcastic other people, face the same shit in terms of family, like quite a number of same genre music, like to sleep damn late, blunt, straightforward, hardly express explicitly our feelings... And the list goes on and on. Hehe. It's really rare to come across someone so alike to you..
Most of the times when he tells me to do things - be it little things in the clan, hunting allies, or doing anything - I would help whenever I can. I would even not sleep just to talk if I sense that he's feeling sian. I don't mind doing anything. Drama huh maybe, and even if it's not mutual, I just do it anyway.
I don't mind placing others before myself. But I mind when people not only don't appreciate it, they treat you rather coldly. Haha. That's why his words really stabs sometimes.. It pains me. But - nevermind.. Sad things aside.. Talk about good points :) He has the ability to make me smile, make me sad, affects how I feel and all. My unique entertainer, I should say. He never fails to make me smile, dk why. Love him to bits.
He's one person that I trust. One that I feel I can confide totally in. One that I can see myself best friends with, or more (That is, if things don't change. But different now I guess... :') ). One that I would want in my life, any positive role, certainly not enemy or passer-by. One I can rely on? One that I can never stay angry at for long. One that I want to be happy, even if it involves me sacrificing.
In other words. He's my 知己.
Time check 4.30am alr. No mood. Getting nagged at as usual. Fucked up life lol. End off.
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