Zomg. Prelim1 is coming?! *Shocked look* I seriously too slack alr. Roar. Nvm. Blog first. OH. I LIKE WATCHING WORLD CUP. LOL. Why people dont like! Tsk. Anw.
monday, 14june
Headed over to jiahui's private house. Early in the morning somemore. Super tired lol. Around 8 like that. Problem with private houses, super difficult to find her house. Anw went there lor. Stayed there awhile. Then went to take MRT. Krystal alr waiting at harbourfront MRT for us. Lolol. Jelly fever so couldnt come ): Spammed called zhenling but no answer. Ah. So we went to jiahui's condo first. Hahaha rich kid la so many houses. Teached jiahui mahjong. Hahahaha. I totally teach until very impatient ): So me and krystal take turns teaching lol. Then went for a late breakfast at vivo. Lol. We slacked alot. 10-11plus le.
Spent a long time deciding what to eat. Then walked around vivo. They all buy biscuits and alot snacks. I bought rock candy at Candy Empire hahaha. Ex like nuts. Then seriously damn sian. So I starting spamming zhenling again. WHOO she answered. She sounded freaking blur la, haha damn funny! Just woke up then blur like nuts. She say she coming, so we hanged around vivo first while waiting for her. They totally played at Cheers ._. I was like trying to sms, but no connection, so I stood at the entrance LOL. Then zhenling came. She wanted to shop. Ahhhh. So we walk around with her. Blahblah.
Finally done buying stuff. Go back jiahui's condo. Study. Teach zhenling mahjong. She learn quite fast la. So all the way we mahjong-ed from 3plus till 7plus. Hahahah, fun! Enough people alr, if not will consider getting jinx or darren over if jiahui dont mind. Darren was like scolding me at night ask why nvr ask him and jinx over. LOL. Mahjong freaks la they. So cleared up the place. Zhenling mopped the house O.O LOL. Jiahui clear stuff. Then me and krystal were ordered by our dear Maria Tan to stay at the sofa and not move. Then krystal had a good time videoing MARIA. LOL. I was like totally climbing from sofa to sofa la, zzz. But no way to get down without touching the floor.
MRT-ed back at around 8plus 9plus. Pekcek at some stuff -.- Then bus-ed home. Haha. Saw weiling! She was waiting for zhenling to go cut hair LOL. Funny man them. She was damn high after that when late in the night. Hahaha. Damn funny.
tuesday, 15june
Dont sms me for now D: My line got problem currently. Wtshit. I think need take a long time for it to be okay D: Stupid seh. I think only a few people know what really happened. Haha. So, sorry to those who smsed and get no reply! I couldnt even see what you all send. Lol.
YOU. I hate the way you're treating me but I can't bring myself to hate you, wth. Happy then talk, not happy then dao. I really want to hate you and ignore you but I just couldn't do it. Give in to you, act as though nothing is wrong, whatsoever, I've done everything. I sometimes really wonder what do you treat me as. Someone you talk to only when you're bored? Someone you cant talk to just because not your age? Or someone you treat as a ranting machine? 4years, my dear, 4years. All the despair, I force it down.
When you're angry, you just released everything on me. I accepted it quietly. You typed angrily everything in caps, I chilled you down, I called you to relax. I apologized to you as though it's my fault. Thanks for taking it for granted man. Do you even realise that I have NEVER stayed angry with you for more than half an hour, or even fifteen minutes? Even when we had quarrels, I was always the first to apologize even though it's totally not my fault. I just give in to you. I can even side you over my good friend and make excuses for you. I even quarrelled with my good friend because of you. My good friend accused me of "shielding" you, I had to admit I did. But I still do it. Even though me and my good friend made up, but still, it doesnt change the fact that I had defended you over a good friend.
I sensed it immediately all the times when you're angry or sad. I was there for you even though you didnt realise it. Come on la, you can't even sense anything if it's me. I act okay when I talk to you. Yes, talking to you really lift my mood, but if I'm down and so are you, I have to act like I'm fine and have to compromise with you, once again, GIVING IN TO YOU. In case you hadn't realized, I dont give in to anyone easily, regardless of friends or even my own sibling. Yet I give in to you willingly.
Giving in to you all the time makes me tired, really tired. Despite so, I still do it. That time. "You tell me for what?" comes in about the biggest problem I had. Thanks ah. I totally changed the viewpoint and had to pretend I'm alright, playing along on another topic with you. I like it, yes. Just talking. But it just doesn't feel right, not being able to share anything. It's totally different as last time.
I know you as well as I know my ABCs, as well as I know my multiplication table. Do you know me that well? I guess not huh. You only know me as the "noob" you jokingly say all the time. I can't help but say: Fuck, you made me sacrificed alot. Yet I just can't hate you I DONT KNOW WHY.
It feels good to rant at a random time.
wednesday, 16june
Got woken up super early! On com at around 8plus. No one that I can talk to is online. Sad. Wl got meeting till super late so couldnt go study. Double sad. Stone at home D: Someone go study with me leh! I dont feel like staying at home la. Totally cannot study one. Roar. Oh must choose day go back school. Have stuff to take. Hmm.
Ohmygod. MY POVERTY ESSAY! Ahhh. Gonna try send by this week. Die la. With the limited amount of time to use, I totally cannot do la. Woah sian max.
Aww, bored. I'm hungry. A dumpling for breakfast and now it's alr near 1. Sian la. Nothing to do ): End off.
"Achieve it. Always aim for the sky, for if you fail at least you can reach the clouds"
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